guardian angel

Monday, November 8, 2010
whenever i am lonely or sad
this angel kisses my tears away
making me smile, love and laugh
surprisingly keeps everything under his sway

guardian of my hopes and dreams
he is the spirit who protects and guide
giving courage , strength and vision
trying to be there always on my side

asking things every now and then
to let him wonder how silly one can be 
trying his patience and bothering him much
yet he is always generous with me

though i know its just a phase
soon i will be left alone
until then let me sleep in peace
don't wake me up before he is gone..

Heart whispers

Wednesday, September 22, 2010
so far apart
we are it seems
though i always
think of us together
deceiver love
has always been
yet its absence
immensely bothers
i miss
when it used to hurt
it hurts
when i miss it still
tempest in my heart
upraises as land 
from river to the hill
hunting by the sense of smell
when i wander behind the mist
my heart whispers .......

taqdeer ke panno se

Friday, July 23, 2010
डर लगता है आज, हवा के झोंके से
कहीं उड़ा न ले जाएँ
ये बादल मेरे सपने
कहीं  बिखर न जाए
ताश के पत्ते, मेरा आशियाना
जो टूटा इस बार आईना
तो रह जायेंगे सिर्फ चंद टुकड़े
जिनमें ये अक्स भी
फिर नज़र न आएगा

psychic lovers(outside of natural or scientific knowledge)

Wednesday, July 21, 2010
"Fragile pixie"

Everything around her is imbued with a breathless sense of wonder,the magical charm of love.
The dew drops,setting sun,romantic songs,monsoons and corns,melted chocolate,orange candies,
colour pink and Kushal.

But she was annoyed,very annoyed. All because she was not sure if she could stay without her love.
They had not planned this escapade,it just popped in.

Sara was ok with everything until she saw on Kushal's face book account the party pics with different girls,whom she was not knowing and have n't heard of either.
Which Indian girl is going to be ok  with her love going on a holiday with girls whom she does n't even know.

Kushal had nothing to  explain or defend himself,all what he could say was,"it was just a holiday and if you
have a problem with this,you should be there with me".
(Sara is in Bangalore,for a dance therapy course and Kushal is handling his business in Delhi)

It was hard for her to digest the lame excuse ,she found it utterly rubbish.There 6 year old relation was now on stake.
Kushal refused to accept his mistake and this time Sara was adamant not to bunk it without clarifications.

Her ivory town was now collapsing with each passing day.He did n't turn up,not even once rather he was living with  the notion that she was over reacting.

   Gradually ,she learned how to live without him and still be happy, as she was told not to compromise when it's all about self respect.But something was missing,the rains were no more romantic and the songs pricked too......

She decided to leave,leave everything.It was under process but before it could materialise , there was an unexpected call.
His voice broke the walls,which she had built up around her all these days.

"I was wrong,please forgive me , I cant live without you, all these days i have been desperately waiting for your call ,it's difficult to face the emptiness when your not around".
"open the door,it's raining outside and I am all wet".
He was standing outside her apartment ,she melted in his arms."Sara please don't leave me , you know I am stupid and i  need you more than you need me ."
"tum mujhe jaane hi kyun dete ho","you are shivering ,coffee?"
The magic was back and there world was complete.
holding her close,kissing her tears.....gazing her deep brown hypnotic eyes..........

kissed angel

Thursday, June 10, 2010
Angels they exist
now I am sure
not the winged one's
but their heart is pure

no supernatural power
no magic wand
showering only smiles
creating special bonds

by happy coincidence
I met one
it wasn't an illusion
neither it's for fun

entering my world
when I so very needed
searching for happiness
on every door when I pleaded

shattered by storms
when I refused to fly 
hoping against hope
was his final try

assembling the pieces
that were mine
turning down gloom
bringing sunshine

who's the blessed angel
I often thought
for what reason's 
was he bought

may be I have answer
answers to this all
kissed by the almighty
he came in winter fall

unaware of what 
life planned for me 
cursing god
for hard times I see

worse was still
to come my way
thinking it's over
enough of the play

this angel came
came in my life
for what reason's 
I could not find

perpetual bother
I proved to him
summoned his presence
with big fat grin

time made me realise
much he (god) cared for me 
worried of future 
he sent thee

no more a trash
I think of me 
his special child
I am suppose to be.......

T- junction

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

With each passing day 
endless desire to be with you
creeps in me to stay
love served as a perch
where sojourn  I lay

 I want to remain
departure is not my wish
but its only for our gain
this decision leaves me mugged
its difficult to express the pain

the distance will grow
grow our love strong                                                                                  
at times its good to let go                                                                                   
for if the bond is true                                                                                   
someday it will back flow


let love never fade                                                                                   
only it has the strength                                                                                    
to ease our travail.....                                                                                   

peeping in : life

Monday, May 31, 2010

The road I never travelled
was travelled often by me 
far off I was thinking
closer it looked at me 
distance covered equalled nil 
downfall it gave 
where I was hopeful still
so true when we say 
rise is not what it gives
sucks each drop of blood
compels to hate, hate oneself
when past is strong
difficult is future to be sketched
forgiven easily
forgotten none
love exists no where
is never fair to one
peeping in my life 
this was all what I could get
lets place a bet!!!!!


Sunday, March 7, 2010
बड़ी भोली थी वो
जो यूँ प्यार कर बैठी
हज़ारों सपने आँखों में लिए
यूँ इकरार कर बैठी
अरमानों को तस्वीर देने
तकदीर से टकरार कर बैठी
बड़ी भोली थी वो
जो यूँ प्यार कर बैठी
छल-दिखावे के बादल जब छंटते देखे
पगली, उनसे भी इनकार कर बैठी
आंसुओं को दामन में छुपाये 
मुस्कराहट की बौछार कर बैठी 
क्या पाया उसने ?यूँ खो कर सब कुछ 
क्यूँ सब कुछ बर्बाद कर बैठी 
बड़ी भोली थी वो 
जो प्यार कह कर 
ज़िन्दगी से खिलवाड़ कर बैठी


Thursday, February 18, 2010
आई तेरे दर पर, हर बंदिश मैं तोड़कर
ख्वाहिश बस, तेरी एक नज़र थी
करम इतना भी न हुआ मुझपर
शायद यही खुदा की रज़ा थी 

psychic lovers(outside of natural or scientific knowledge)

Monday, February 15, 2010

"बारिश की हर बूँद
जिसने मुझे छुआ
सूर्य की वो हर किरण
जिसने मुझे रौशन किया
हवा की हर वो थाप 
जो मुझे महका गयी 
चांदनी सी रंगीन वो रात 
जो मुझे सजा गयी 
साँसों की हर वो राग 
जो संगीत बना गयी 
धड़कन की वो गूँज 
जो शोर मचा गयी
यूँ ही मेरी नज़रें 
तेरी छवि बना गयीं
छवि ऐसी जो 
मेरी ज़िन्दगी उभार गयी
उभरे  हर पन्ने पर
मेरी खुशियाँ सजा गयी 
खुशियाँ भी खुश हो न पायीं 
और जुदाई मुझे दफना गयी
जुदाई के मौसम में भी 
तेरे प्यार का रंग था घना 
दामन में था बस साथ तेरा 
साथ जो चलता रहा"

During my trip to singapore ,last month ,i met this lady who must be around 69 years old and was seated next to me .During this long journey of 5 hours, i couldnt resist but talk to her.what grace and charm she had and it was during that conversation learned about her.

she had no children,no family ,no husband or any body close to her except"JAI".
52 years back she met this handsome fellow at a party ,who stayed in her neighbourhood and had just returned from his boarding completing his education this was their first encounter.dressed in a yellow saree and a bun decorated with jasmine,she looked no less then a princess.
                                        This man named JAIYADITYA was also the hot topic among all the ladies, for they all wanted him to be their son in law.
Taking each others name or even talking was not permitted during those all what they could do was to take a glance every now and then.
After a few days they met each other in a garden at the back of a temple and declared their love for each other.
unlike the bollywood cinema their was no problem in their getting married as they belonged to the same caste,same religion,and shared almost equal status.
                                        Finally,the things were fixed and they got engaged.only after a few days MANYA'S father expired and it was said that it was due to manya's stars which were not in favour of her fathers life.
heart broken and hurt she started blaming herself and became superstitious.(after all who wants to loose the one we love the most).
 In order to clear all her doubts,she wanted to get her and jaiyaditya's kundlis matched.
The pandit said her stars will have negative effect on his life as well as his family if they get married.
This cleared her dilemma and she decided to call off her engagement.Jai was not the one who believed in all this and tried to convince manya too.but she was in no mood to change her decision.Though they both knew it wont be easy for either of them to forget each other but their was no other alternative.
                              Manya promised Jai that she wont marry anyone else ever but he will have to begin a new life.
now after 44 years Jai has a family, two son and a daughter and have shifted to singapore and manya is living with all the good memories and love she treasured.
Today she is going to visit their place as its Jai's 75th birthday and his kids have planed a surprise party in which she is the guest of honour.
i asked her how come they are still in touch and his family does n't have an objection?
with a generous smile she said"the day we got engaged we promised each other to be best of friends, though the engagement did n't last for long nut we are still fulfilling our promises..
ANNOUNCEMENT: flight no. AK353 is about to land at the CHANGI AIRPORT in some time,kindly fasten your seat belts,hope you enjoyed your flight.have a nice day.
After the immigration when i  proceeded to collect my luggage i could see the  handsome old man who came to receive her.
They hugged each other and headed to their destination.
its well said that love never dies....


Friday, January 8, 2010
i sincerely apprecite ur generosity
of assisting me through out my life
and i hope i am not being selfish enough
by asking all u special people to continue doing so.
as i wont be able to think of a life without my dear ones.
thanks.n a very happy new year !
i can no other answer make,but,thanks,and thanks-william shakespeare.

ज़िन्दगी में आने के लिए
मेरी ओर हाथ बढाने के लिए
ज़िन्दगी से पेहचान कराने के लिए
ख़ास हूँ मैं ये बताने के लिए
हर कदम साथ निभाने के लिए
अँधेरे में रौशनी दिखाने के लिए
प्यार से प्यार कराने के लिए
कभी समझने तो कभी समझाने के लिए
तहे दिल से आपका शुक्रिया
 ज़िन्दगी में आने के लिए
इसे यूँ खूबसूरत बनाने के लिए !