psychic lovers(outside of natural or scientific knowledge)

Thursday, October 29, 2009

DIARY ENTRY 29.10.09

Dear Yaara (god)-{that is how ananya calls him}

how have you been, it was a long tiering day for me,but i enjoyed.
though uno why but still mujhe batana hai......can u believe he finally called up
(kartik , ananya's love rather life, she was crazy about him)

pehle toh gussa kiya , phir mujhse baat nahin ki and then after two long days he called up all the way from Mumbai.
(kartik ,working as a system analyst in a multinational company)

sirf" sorry" bola and then he said" i am busy have some work"

male ego u see,bloody ASS ...

ino mujhe aisa nahin bolna chahiye. but he always does this.

kal jab maine apko letter likha tha , i had told u , why he yelled at me and even u know it wasnt my mistake
when he called up my lectures were going on, toh kaise baat karti ?

and as usual u know he has his own assumptions and judgement.

sorry again!
ab nahin bolongi aise theek hai

"so rahe the kya?"

"nai nai swimming kar rahi thi":))

he said" i love you"
n hanged up...weired no

1:00am -" i really love you, chod toh nahin doge na "

1:35 am- "baby i am really sorry please forgive me"

and as usual uno how easily i forgive people , so I said its ok.

he said he wants to marry me as he cannot live without me ,he 'll die.

typically bollywood masala movie types.
but the fact is i loveto hear that

2:30am -we were still talking, i told him though the call rates have been reduced but still he cannot afford to talk on STD for so long

(he was least bothered to listen)

3:15am- "i have lectures tomorrow"
(actually she is not a student but a lecturer at B.H.U)

but stupid baat karte karte so gaya
meri neend toh kharaab kar di na , isliye main is waqt letter likh rahi hoon.

but i wish if i could see , how he looks when he sleeps!

muskurahat jinse nazrein na hatein
nazrein jinmein sapne basein
sapne jinmein saath ho hum
saath jo ho har kadam
meri kalpana mein tum
aise hi lagte ho
jab hoge rubaru
tab phir likhoongi in pannon par
jab sote ho toh kaise dikhte ho!

(5:00am) good night ke liye toh late ho gaya hai
goodmorning yaara!


good bye:but good

Wednesday, October 28, 2009
hold my hand, stay back
wish could have said that
look into my eyes ,be mine
wonder these were my lines
with the glowing moon in that dim light
were the thoughts
when saw him cross the line.
freezed legs , sinking heart,stoned eyes n choked
was still waiting for the hope
wanted to touch the way i needed to be
and believe forever, he is there for me
at last hugged my own self
to show i was fine
for love is love
only when it equals wine
his sudden return
bought a distinct smile
"without you i cannot cover half a mile"
were the words told in a single line
"hold my hand ,look into my eyes
stay back and be mine".

psychic lovers(outside of natural or scientific knowledge)

Friday, October 9, 2009

half: a kiss
9th october
4:00 in the morning, phone rings
aisha-(sleepy yet awake)"hello!"
no reply
-"hello"baby are you ok?"
" where are you?"

a song is heard loud and clear
you are so beautiful,so damn beautiful(akon)

aisha smiles and before she could speak
kunal-"I LOVE YOU"
how many pegs down
?"(ppl get romantic after boozing i read it some where)
kunal- "i dont remember"
aisha - "baby where are you?"
kunal- "i dont remember, am driving,heading towards..god knows where"
" i miss you yaar! aa jao na"
*the two of them started 7 yrs back same date and today is there anniversary.
497 km away from new delhi, aisha was there in lucknow.long distance reationship,yes that is what it was.they often met now and then as it was his home town as well.

)"how much i want to be there with you. tum aa jao na its been so long"

kunal hates when she cries(holding his emotions-i have office tomorow,got to wake up early,aap so jao,i have reached home,gdnt.

*before she could was disconnected.
when did the crying eyes went of to sleep even they diidnt morning with fixed routine aisha rushed for her classes(amity,integrated final year)
on her way phone beeped,there was a msg from kunal

"dnt go 2 college
meet at c.c.d hazratganj
in half an hour
hv sent a giftwid
a fren(varun)
luv ya"

confused aisha calls him-"whats this?
kunal(in a hurry)-"i am a little busy baby,in a meeting call you later
do go and collect your gift."

"but i dont know whose varun?"

"dnt worry he know you,hope you will like it
do let me know,luv ya bye!"
*stuck in jam she was already 20 min late.
phone rings again(screen flashin kanu calling..)before she could say anything

kunal-"where are you?,always late the other person is waiting,he isnt your servant,
whats taking you so long?"
(in a low voice)-"
stuck in jam,what can i do?
ask him to go ,i dont want anything"

"now dont overreact,tell me how long will you take,will inform him the same."

"say next 15 min."
ok bye!

*with watery eyes,she continued to cover the remaining distance wishing her auto had wings but nothing seemed to be favouring her neither the technology nor the traffic sense.
well not 15 but she managed it in 27 min 33 sec.

entering c.c.d she could not see any familiar face,so she called kunal

"baby i have reached,but how an i going to recognise varun?"

"wait he has just gone to a near by shop,probably must be reaching."

*thinking about the last night,she got realy pissedhe remembered to send her a gift but forgot to even wish.may be that is how a realtion tends to become after a certain time.
it was 10 for 12:30,almost 15 min from the last conversation.

she headed towards the counter tto place her order.
(a heavy voice broke)"2 cafe mocha with sachets of brown sugar please"
it was him.

*not bothered about the crowd,hugged each other n she broke in his arms.
(unable to believe that it was him)

"how come you are here?"

"i drove the entire night
to be with you
to see this smile
to see my angel"
all at once.

*gazing at each other they wondered have they realy completed 7 was so fresh.
fingers clutched
legs playing
naughty yet shy eyes
(listening to ppl talking about them)

*they spent neraly 2 hours there(c.c.d)
moving out for a drive,holding hands while changing gear(kunal giving lessons how to drive)
reaching his place,they were so lost, that they stayed in the parking for around 6 min.deciding whether to drop down or not.
but had to it was time to meet his mom.not that they were meetig for the first time but yes after a long time.
no body home(she left 20 min ago as they were late and ahe had to reach somwhere)

kunal showing his room ,discussing his work was lying on her laps,playing with her curls,
touching her n saying'motu'

smelling each other aisha could sense the passion
there was a sudden silence which broke with the ring of her phone(screen showing dad calling)

she was late
"i'll be home in 20 min.
stuck in jam"

"drop me home kunal"

*he managed to take the shortest route n reached within 12 min to assure she is not in trouble.dropping her at the end of the lane he said:
"happy anniversary once again"

"maine toh tumhein kuch diya hi nahin"(she came closer to kiss)
feeling each others breathe
pumping heart
shivering hands

her phone beeped again(dad calling)
she dropped down bidded good bye and left

*it wasnt that they were kissing for the first time but it felt as if it is the first every time they did so.

she left
kunal finds a paper on the front seat reading:

कितने अज़ीज़ हो तुम
तुमने कभी जाना नहीं
खता ये हमारी है
आया हमें बताना नहीं
अल्फाज़ कुछ अनकहे रह गए
और कुछ अनसुने
न तुम हमसे कह सके
और न ही हम तुम्हें
पल भर की आज़माइश भी
अब सितम लगती है
तेरी ज़िन्दगी से जुड़ी
ज़िन्दगी मेरी
खुदा की रजा लगती है